Insanity!

Embarked on a new workout routine and program. Started Shaun T's 60 day Insanity workout program. Last week my husband and I completed the fit test (day 1) but with the clocks moving ahead an hour and how freakin tired we were in the evening decided to start yesterday. It was soo hard only 40 minutes including warm up and cool down. But we pushed through the workout. I love it because it's on DVD and we dont have to be in the garage working out with weights are on the treadmill.
Life really never stays the same. It seems once I get in the groove of a workout routine it has to change. Like anything in life. But with me working out on my own at home has never been my thing. So my bootcamp trainer who we hired to come to my work in the afternoons after school took a month off. Well, a couple of us tried the dvds to keep us going. Didn't work...no real accountablilty. First 2 times was fine then one or two of us couldn't make it and the motivation wasn't there anymore for me. I am soo envious of my friend J who will workout no matter what. Either at home in the morning or evening as long as she gets it done. Me? no way...I will use my time doing what ever other than w/o. But she is in awesome shape.
Didn't know if I mentioned this but I am on a 3 week vacation. Have a list a mile long of what Iwant to do while I am off. Hmmm..thought one of them was to sleep but here I sit at 5 in the a.m. Going to the gym this morning and yes, do the day 2 of insanity this evening with my husband. I just want to try working out twice. Basically, I miss the bootcamp class at the gym and the friends I have made there. When I work obviously I don't see that group during the week and not much lately on the weekend.
As far as eating, I suck. I sooo need to eat better. Make better choices, blah, blah, blah! I feel like crap. I will eat well for a day or so then really eat what ever I want. I don't feel my band as much when I eat crap food. But when I eat healthy I need to follow the rules about not eating fast and chewing well. I forget I have the band most of the time when I am alone. When eat in with friends I will eat very minimal for fear of getting stuck. Friends will even comment that I didn't eat much. Most of the time I am really hungry when I get home then will eat my left overs. So thats where I don't make good choices. For example at BJs Pizza I ordered a chardonney shrimp pasta and only ate a few bites then late that night ate almost all of it. Not very good on my stomach when I went to bed. But it tasted sooo good. Well, I had better go get ready before my kiddos wake up. Off to start my day. Thanks for reading and have a beautiful day!

My Surprise!

Let me preface this by saying I typed this a couple weeks ago but the pics wouldn't upload and I haven't been back since. I will post again later but wanted to put this up first.

So it's been a while since I posted and I have just been busy... Sooooo Tim had planned such a wonderful surprise for me two weeks ago. I felt sooo good getting ready and just full of anticipation. So it was Saturday morning two weeks ago and we woke up to hear the new of the earthquake in Chile. Living in So. California there was a tsunami warning mentioned as well as for Hawaii. We know now that the tides were high but nothing came of it. Then on top of the warning our weather was stormy and just pouring rain. So Tim was saying how the rain could cancel our plans. I was like okay we will make the best of it. He said go ahead and wear the dressy clothes in case it wasn't cancelled. Dressed and ready to go we headed off in the car. Tim gets a phone call and was very vague with whom ever he was talking to. He said it was off but we can make the best of it. As soon as he started heading south on the freeway I guessed we were driving to San Diego. He said that last year when we were there I commented on the beautiful Hyatt Hotel ( I have such a bad memory of things I say, so if I said it then I'm sure I would love it now) So we get to the hotel all dressed up at noon and nowhere to go. Our room wasn't ready so we headed the bar and had a glass of wine and watched Hawaii on CNN. Then Tim gets a text and picks up my hand and says ready to go? OMG, I knew it!!! He had such a twinkle in his eye and didn't seem soooo disappointed by the cancellation...well we walked to the front of the hotel as a limo pulls up to the curb. He opened the door and there sat our two great friends that happen to be our neighbors. What a great surprise!!! She was the one that took me shopping for the outfit I was wearing!!!! Geez, it felt great to be surpised by Tim and our friends. I haven't been in a limo since I was 16. So off we went to a casino for some gambling. We had fun playing the tables and then we came back to the hotel. Tim and I went to dinner and met up with our friends at the top of the Hyatt for a cocktail and a delicious dessert. So, really what was cancelled because of the weather was instead of taking the limo to the casino, we were going to take a helicopter to the casino and back. Tim was dissappointed that didn't work out thought I would think the limo was a let down. Nooo way...It was an awesome weekend. BTW, I really couldn't eat because I was so excited and I just had a hard time eating. On Sunday, we drove up the coast watched the huge crashing waves. So here are some pictures of our weekend. To end this post I really and truly happy that I had the lapband and am where I am today. I feel great, confident and I don't hate myself anymore. I am comfortable wearing clothes and not feeling like I am too fat to wear nice clothes. I don't beat myself up anymore. I am finally enjoying life and wanting to experience and embrace life.

Surprise!

I have never bought anything like this ever! But I did today!!! So my husband has planned a weekend surprise coming up! I've known about this for about 4 weeks or so and it has been not so big until now. He asked my friend (I'll call her R) to take me shopping because he told her where we are going and or doing. He had no idea how to tell me to dress. So we went to the White House Black Market store. Love it! So I tried on several outfits. I tell you my friend is like a personal shopper and has great taste! She mentioned that I should try on this boustier (the above) when we walked in and I dismissed it cause I've never worn such a thing. So my friend R was gathering shirts, cami's, pants, shrugs with the help of the saleslady. So I had decided on a pink cami and black cardigan with pink accents. R kept saying to try on the boustier and she picked one up on clearance for herself in a different color and tried it on. Sooo cute on her. No fat folds over the back which I didn't want to tell her was my biggest fear. As I was asking the saleslady to put my outfit aside so we could shop more in the outdoor mall, R said try this on...so I did. That one wouldn't even zip in the back so she went out and got the one above. Didn't have an 8 but the 10 fit perfect. And to my amazement no fat coming over the edges. So now we were on to another outfit. One that was way out of my comfort zone!!! Although after wearing the complete outfit I was comfy. OKAY People I am hanging up my safe cami and sweater for a BOUSTIER! Although I did buy a sweater to go with it. But I will take it off for my hubby. OMG! I can't wait to find out what my husband planned. This is to celebrate my 40th and our 15th wedding anniversary. We are doing it early because we have so many big things this summer. Both our kids' birthdays are in June, and we will be in Maine for mine. So Tim wanted to do it now. I really don't have a clue. Only my friend knows what we are doing. He didn't even tell my mom who was visiting with us this weekend. Well, I just wanted to share and check in with my fellow bloggers. Thanks for listening! Have a great week everyone!!!

P.S. My bootcamp instructor I have been with over a year has some physical ailment and can't train us for over a month. I am sooo nervous and don't want to stop working out. I just have been in a great routine that I didn't have any excuses and I had to be accountable. Now she is not going to be coming to my work (so spoiled), now I have to make myself workout.

So this week I plan to eat clean, workout, drink water, get a mani/pedi, (thinking about a spray tan but I'm scared to look orangy), whiten teeth, wax, hmmmm I sound like I am a wreck right now.
oxox Michele

Happy Valentine's Day!

Yep, we had lobsters for VALENTINES DAY! Mmmm, the butter was soo good with it...now onward. Back to eating right. Well, I did have some leftovers today.

In two weeks Tim has planned an overnight trip to celebrate my 40th birthday and our 15th wedding anniversary. He planned it so early because we have some extra money and we are going to be traveling this summer. I have no idea where we are going. Dress is elegant. He was worried about spending too much money. He said it took a lot of planning and thought. I am excited and nervous at the same time. I don't know what I am going to wear.

So yesterday I planned the menus for the week and went grocery shopping for it all. The rest of today I will be cooking it all so that it will be easy to reheat or unthaw and eat. Last week reallly sucked. Boy, I ate really bad and it was because we went on our trip and when I got home didn't plan menus or shop. So we had take out or quick fixes all week. Uggg. So back to it. My workouts were good this week: Bootcamp Wed, Friday, and Saturday. Sooo sore from not working out the week before.

All our plane, hotel, lake house and rental car reservations are made for our July trip to Maine and Idaho! 5 months to go. I love having something exciting to look forward to so I can strive for something.

I love reading all your blogs and I am going to try to write more this week! I learn so much from reading your blogs and laugh too. I makes me feel normal when I know people are going through the same things I am. So I am off to prepare our meals for the week.
Blog at ya later,
Michele

Back from our Reunion!

Matthew on the pier at Avila Beach, California Me and Kaitlyn from our room's balcony.

Kaitlyn smiling

Tim and I at Avila Beach

I had such a wonderful time reconnecting from family members I haven't seen in about 15 years or more. They live in the San Francisco area and they are second cousins and we just really aren't that close. But we want to change things. We have our kids now and have more in common. Fun people and really nice I have to say. Relaxing weekend at a hotel right on the beach and being February not crowded at all! Rainy but the sun shined at times and the weather didn't interrupt anything. We swam in the heated pool, played on the beach, ate out, and just hung out in the lobby and each others rooms. We had 12 rooms rented so we were thankful to have family next to us because the first night my 20 month old would not go to sleep and was crying at midnight. Anyways, after eating sooo good last week I think my band is tighter. I had to really watch what I ate and just basically picked at food all weekend. Didn't eat too much and didn't PB. I am going grocery shopping today and planning our meals. Have a great Monday!!! I hope all you back east are home and don't have to dig out to go to work today.

Mini Family Reunion

Tomorrow we are heading up the coast to Avila Beach near Pismo Beach for a small family reunion my dad planned last year. Not sure of the total number of people going but enough to book 12 rooms in a hotel on the beach. I am looking forward to seeing aunts, uncles, cousins and my dad. My children are going to have a blast playing in the sand and swimming in the heated pool. I will watch what I eat but not worry so much about it. I am sooo happy that when I was getting my clothes ready I really don't have to worry about what I look like. Or embarrassed the way I look. I stopped in NY and Co. for the two for one pants sale. Found size 8p jean that I loved and then they didn't have the size in another jean so I could get a free on. Well the sales lady was like take a size 6 and after the trip return it to another store for correct size. I agreed and in the back of my mind I can make it a goal to fit in them. OMG when I got home I tried them on and they fit! Little snug but they have 2% spandex and feel okay. They are midrise cause all the low rise I can't get over my hips. That was fun and exciting finding that out. I bought a pair of old navy sweetheart jeans in a 6 but those pants always seem to run bigger.
So I won't blog until Sunday night or Monday since we are going away.
Today I ate well but after shopping I was sooo hungry. I stopped at Wendy's and got a 5 piece spicy nuggets. So good! Otherwise followed my diet all day and still full of enery and completely exhausted when it's time for bed. Have been sleeping like a rock too.
Took my little man to get a haircut tonight and he was sooo excited this time to sit in the big chair and watch her cut his hair. He smiled the whole time. He didn't even want to wash his hair at bathtime cause it would get messed up. He's sooooo growing up. Using all these big words in context and asking so many thoughtful questions. Can't wait to spend the weekend at the beach with him!
oxox Michele

And onward....

So another day. Sitting and watching Ruby on Oprah. She just walked out in jeans:) So proud of all her hard work. I have watched her show at times and so interested in watching her find out why she gained so much weight. I know I ate to suppress my feeling and I feel that the band prevents me from doing that, well as much as I used to. Just recently, like a couple weeks ago I stopped at Jack in the Box and got a sampler tri (2 eggrolls, 3 stuffed jalepenos, and 3 mozzarella cheese sticks) Well I rushed home and at it all and can't believe this but it all went down without me getting sick. I was almost totally numb for the rest of the night and felt like crap. Whew. I think that I was dealing with my emotions that way and slipped up. I am so glad those episodes don't come along as often as the used to.

So I ate pretty good today. This morning I could only eat 1/4 of my breakfast sandwich. Then I meant to eat it at my 10:00 recess and forgot I had it(that is sooo unlike me, to forget food!). I had a slice of turkey and swiss cheese on a rye crisp. For lunch I went out with my teacher friends and had a salad with blue cheese. Large coffee. Then was in a meeting after school and had to rush to bootcamp. I realized I was sooo hungry. Work out was brutal today! Love the rush afterwards when I am done. I came back to my classroom and was so focused and prepped my work for tomorrow. I am feeling so much better while I am teaching and sooo focused and efficient. I was before but this is different. I am much more energetic.
After bootcamp I ate the texas cavier(black beans, corn, pico de gallo, cumin) in the car on the way home.
For dinner I made chicken stir fry with brown rice.
I did have more water than yesterday but also had more coffee too. Love coffee!!!! I think I need to make icetea to get more fluids in. Feeling good though. Well, I should be off to bed.
oxox Michele