Back to Reality

I thought I would share a few of the family pics we had taken at Laguna Beach, CA two weeks ago. Love doing photo shoots instead of going to places like J.C. Penny. My kids never sit and just smile at the camera. Ha!

I can't believe the high I was on during all the party planning and throughout the surprise party. Now once everything is over I feel exhausted and just like I don't have a focus. I wonder if this is how manic depressive types feel. I feel depressed and aggitated. Not feeling like a good parent, and just want to go to bed. Tired. I need to focus on my weight loss and getting that moving. Like I said in my previous post I am nervous about getting a fill. I think I need to go back to Lapband Talk and look at what everyone is eating. I lost my focus and am ready to get going again.

Two weeks ago my hubby announced he wants to run the L.A. Marathon in March. Hmmm, he hasn't worked out in 2 years and hasn't run in about 10. He had an overactive thyroid and had always been really thin. Thin enough that buddies would comment on his thinness. Well, now that his thyroid had been half killed off and he carelessly went off his thyroid medicine he gained 25 pounds in two months. He now is uncomfortable and wants to get in shape and turning 40 sure did change him. I think he looks good but it all has to do with how you feel. Right now I am the thinnest I've been in 10 years but still have 30 pounds to go. I feel smaller than before but still feel fat.

So I am going to train with him for the marathon. I will give it a shot what's the worst that can happen, I walk it? Crawl maybe? I will be like Kramer in that seinfeld episode, dragging himself across the finish. So here we go we have 211 days to go! That can be my new focus. Right now I need a rest.