I've been a bad bad girl...

Yep, true confessions start now. Tomorrow I start clean with getting a needed fill.... During the week this is what I ate:
Last Sunday, watching preseason football: mozz sticks, buffulo tenders, and tator tots
chicken alfredo with fettucini (dinner and two lunches with leftovers)
many pieces of chocolates from the candy jar in my classroom (I usually buy starbursts and jolly ranchers, a parent donated chocolate this time:)
Hamburger for dinner last night. It all went down fine. usually gets stuck
sour cream and onion potatoe chips
2 corndogs this week
3 pieces of digerno frozen pizza
starbucks caramel macchiato (never had one before, prob lots of calories)
vanilla filled cookies
animal cookies
wine
taquitoes, chips, and salsa
Wow! what a bunch of crap! I definately need a fill!!!
Oh, I did eat some fruit a parent brought in for me. Soo thoughtful.

I did work out Monday and Wednesday, and I am going this morning to the gym. But it was way hot in the afternoon, close to 100. And my workout sucks. Mentioned it to my trainer and she said diet is 70% of being able to have good workouts. Yep my fuel has been carbs, sugars, and fats. Lacking in good nutritients and protein.

I did gain 2 pounds and I am at 155 this morning. So I have lost 38 pounds since December. Hmmm.... but I have went from tight size 16's to size 10' s and I bought a pair of size 8 Old Navy Sweatheart jeans a couple weeks ago. That's the only pair of size 8's I own at this time. Waiting until I cant wear 10's anymore then buy 8's . Last week I pulled out some 12's I bought in March and way too baggy and yuck. Amazing that I felt so thin in those clothes.

It's September and by December my year bandiversary, I want to be close to goal. I really don't know what I am capable of and how much I can lose? My dr. thinks 5 pounds a month is reasonable. That's been about my avg. per month, but have had a huge stall and should have lost more by now. I have been this weight all summer and need to get serious. Time to really work at it. Loved it when I was just tight enough I knew I couldn't eat the crap above cause it would get stuck or I could have a little and no more cause I was full. Tomorrow, I can't wait....10:00 a.m. and I am on my way... I need to read more on lapband talk to get ideas on what others are eating.

I am nervous about my fill tomorrow. Will I be too tight? I haven't had an unfill yet and I think everyone I read about or know with the band has had an unfill. I need it so bad that I am afraid I might not know it's too tight until it's too late and I am home. I will just need to go back next Sunday then.

Well, off to the gym with my two little ones. Matt keeps asking it it time to go yet? He loves going to the gym to play. It's a small private gym and the babysitter just loves the kids. College student and holds Kaitlyn and coddles over her. Cute. Anyways, afterwards I will be cleaning house and maybe going in the pool with Matt when K is napping. It's hard to watch them both in the pool by myself. Tim is working today gettting the overtime pay:)))))