New Beginnings!

More of Tim's 40th. I just got the photographers photos from the party. They are out of order as I uploaded them . Sorry. The kids photos were taken before we arrived and the blindfold was the start of the Surprise party. These are for Cathy since I can't upload on FB at this time:) Enjoy.

Tim's Grand Entrance! After the blindfold he saw everyone above over the balcony.

The grand Entrance:)

I parked at the neighbors house and we had to walk down to our house.

I got back the pictures from the photographer at Tim's 40th here are just some of them. The cake I had custom made for Tim. Then some of my favorite ones of the kids.

Another new beginning. Got my fill today. My last fill was May 24 and I was surprised to hear I was filled at an 8 in a 10cc band. But my last fill was a .9 so he said it would take very little to tighten for me. My dr. is very funny. He asks why am I here. I say to get a fill. He says why do I think I need one? Because I eat too much and I have no restriction. (hence my last blog). So he mumbles to himself and calls out in the hallway that he needs some help. Then he asked if I weighed in today? nope. So I went out in the hall and weighed myself. He waited until I adjusted the scale... 156. Okay come back in. He said I was a very tiny lady and that I was doing good with the band. Not much else. This surgery center that he does his business on Sundays is owned by someone else. So I think its kinda hokey. Old. and the people the dr. works with I am guessing, he is not their boss and works for the owner. So it creates a wierd dynamic of relationships between dr., helper?, and patient. It doesn't feel like a real drs. office to me. I just am there for my fill and get out. Don't get me wrong, my dr. is an excellent beverly hills dr, but has taken this sunday job, maybe friends with the owner? I love the fact that the fills are so easy. He always finds them on the first poke and then I sit up. Drink water until it goes down no more. Today, I have been skeptical if I had enough fill. Only cause it was so fast. But he looked at my past fills and it warned him not too much for me. So I left and bought some soup. I love tomato basil soup so that has been my lunch and will be my dinner. When I was leaving he said I will see you in six months!!! Wow! That is a long time! I am worried because my plan says I can have 6 free fills within the first year. So I said that to him and he said don't worrry I will be fine. He probably knows hes not making any money off me? Hmmm.... will I be close to goal within 6 months? Not the point right?
This is my tool. He needs to fill as I need it right? Anyways, I will go with it. It has been 3 1/2 months since my last fill. I just want to get down to 125. That's my goal. I want to be at the weight I got married at. Fit in my wedding dress and be light. I just need the band to work for me. I know I suck at dieting, done that.

As for the rest of my day, I came home and we watched some football. Love Dallas. Always have. Then Matthew wanted to go swimming. Took him into the pool until nap time. Then Kaitlyn woke up. We played and now she is napping. Hubby is napping with matthew. He works so much overtime it's good for him to catch up on his sleep. I am here and thinking about laundry and dinners for the week. I am excited about not eating.

Now, that's another issue I have. I don't eat as much but I plan all the dinners for the kids and Daddy. I don't want to be resentful but I run out of ideas for the dinners. It's same ole. Kaitlyn is still on soft foods cause she has only 6 teeth. Matt eats what we eat. I always have to planning and making the dinner. Why is that?

Well, happy sunday. Have a great week!!!! I love reading blogs and am so interested in everyones band experiences. I look forward to dropping more weight with my new fill. We shall see.

Cathy, my BFF in VA, if you are reading this please say hi in the comment section. I wouldn't have gotten the blog if it weren't for you! Again you changed my life. Remember Chaim? That changed the direction of my life too! I can't wait for you to start your blog. It's so funny when I talk to you and you probably know everything that is happening cause you read my blog. Facebook friends know so much about me too and I forget when I see them at work, and they will mention stuff, and I'm thinking, "how'd you know that?" I used to be such a private person. All I know now is that I am loving life and it feels like a weight has been lifted from my back. Literally and figuratively a weight. I hold myself a little taller (yeah, I'm still short) but I feel taller in my body. I don't feel as ashamed or worthless. Some days, I don't know why the worthless feeling comes on...but it doesn't last as long as it used to and I don't feel as alone as I used to.

I had better go. This is my chance to nap cause everyone is napping. But here I am blogging.

Have a great week everyone!!!!