Since I posted I have done several things. Went to spin class and felt like beating my self to death and trying to mentally get a handle on why this happened with the ring and all (see prev. post). Talked to my two friends after class about it. Weird but mentioned to Nancy the day my gym bag went missing. And we just laughed and said, "hate missing things because you think about it all day." Then yesterday I told her it was stolen and luckily nothing of value. Then today I just was near crying and in a quivering voice after class, being drained, let it all out. They comforted me. Now I understand what this has meant to me. I feel that I didn't show enough love or pride or what have you in the gift my dad gave to me so I could pass it down to my son. Why is that? I left it in the glove box. I am learning a big lesson the hard way. Possessions and what they mean. It took me back to when I was 15 and my mom saved money to buy me a designer handbag (Aigner) popular in the 80's. I mean we were flat broke and she put it on layaway for me. I had it about a month and went to the public pool stuck it in a locker without a lock. Went swimming, came back and it was stolen. Sick. sick. Why? Stupid.
So after talking with my friends and coming home I tried to file a police report but their server wouldn't accept it. I need to call the p.d. tomorrow during business hours to file one.
Then I cleaned the garage and parked my car inside.
I will have to move on.
So today after spin I weighed myself and I am at an all time low: 149. (goal is 125) I sweated so much on that damn bike. Amazing. So that was 4 days of working out this week and eating ok. I haven't been drinking wine in the evenings either. I think I am more focused than I had been the last couple months. I think I could use more fill but don't want to go back for fear I will be too tight. My hubby started working 6 days a week/12 hour shifts so I will be even more busy with the kiddos and really doing it all. This busy schedule happens once a year and runs until Christmas. Good overtime but he really misses us. Last year he had to be on nights and that was a killer for me. I was a few months postpartum and was really overwhelmed and ended up on antidep. This time I am going to use exercise to get through it. Like today normally wouldn't have done the spin class. But taking the kids out to the gym breaks up the day and they love playing with the other kids. Matthew loves the gym. I love when he says, "you going to workout mommy?" Isn't that healthy? Wow! So hard to believe. And when I am done he asks, "why are you all wet mommy?" Ahhhhh....
Gotta go naptime for Kaitlyn is over...time to play!!!!
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I hope your things return to you! It's such a violation of your personal well being when you are a victim of theft. You have a great attitude about exercising and the best part about the next few months is that you have a plan. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteMichele---I am so proud of you and your WL, wtg! I know you feel you are learning a lesson about the value of possessions, but in the meantime take it from someone who has learned a lot about possessions over the past couple of years of being jobless and losing nearly everything...those things are just that "possessions" and the memories and stories are things that can get passed on without ever being stolen. This horrible violation is a crime of convenience like Tim said and no one was physically harmed. I am not trying to minimize the situation AT ALL but want you to realize you are a healthier, lighter, stronger woman and whoever this a-hole is who took your stuff can't take any of that away from you!!
ReplyDeleteI love it when, on the weekends, my daughter says "Mommy, when you get back from the gym can you bring me to your bed?" (Hubby is usually getting ready for work and I sometimes go back to bed with her.) I have to explain that those are my days off but it makes me feel good because she knows it's a constant in my life now and a habit :) Makes me smile!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the WL! New lows always make the day so much better.
I hope something comes of a police report for your missing items, especially ring!! :(