Organizing

I used to be soo organized. Now? not so much. My goal is to get it together. House stuff with two kids and a hubby who works long hours it's hard to keep up. Yesterday I took the day off to relax and now there is crap everywhere. Uggg....now it's cleaning the kitchen, laundry, and cleaning in general that needs to be done. Then there's organization of little things. Like, my kid's socks, my hair barretts, shoes, and things need a place, again. I have been tired after working, cooking, stuff that needs to be done that the organization went by the wayside.
So, after this post is finished, and my coffee is finished brewing, I am off to clean as much as I can with Matthew running around. How's that for a plan?

This all stems from this morning when I almost talked myself out of going to spin class this morning cause I couldn't find a barrett to hold my hair back, or my son's shoes (which daddy left them in the car and is a work) So it frustrates me when things hold me up. But I did go. My hair was fine as it's long enough for most to stay in a rubber band. I found other shoes for Matthew. But I almost said forget it. But I wouldv'e hurt myself if I wouldn't have gone and I feel so good after sweating and moving my body. Matthew needs to get of the house for a while too. But I think I am a perfectionist and expect a lot from myself and I am always looking at what needs to be done or what is messed up that I don't slow down and see what is good. I have to change that. I want to be more positive because lately I've been so harsh on myself and it's exhausting. I want things to look good and clean and neat but really I can only do so much. I also just want to play with my kids. I don't know what needs to change because it feels out of balance? I also want to watch football today but it's not much fun by yourself. I am such a rambler and all over the place in this post.

Here's what is good: I have my health, I am smaller, I have a loving husband who works hard for us, I have an adorable 3 year old who just minutes ago discovered what magnets do, I have a 16 month old who really loves to be held, so much we are dying for her to start walking, I have a comfy home, I have friends who care, I have my band, I have a working car, I have a wonderful job where I call my second home and my second family, I am acknowledging my feelings where as before I stuffed them, I love exercise now, I love that I feel proud that I am consistant with my workouts......

Lightbulb Moment: Okay, now that I am not beating myself up over my weight my focus and shifted to my surroundings. My stuff in my house, my classroom, my car and I notice neater people and more organzied people. (Like I used to compare my body to other (not as much now), I compare peoples houses or classrooms, ) Then I take a look at mine omg just can't keep up, or am overwhelmed with what needs to be done. What the heck is this? Am I crazy? I am not jealous of material stuff but how it's neatly kept up or clean. Is this crazy? Is this weird?
Anyways, I will be cleaning and trying to get stuff done! Have a great Sunday!!!!!