A couple before and afters:)))

Taken November 6, 2009 @ 147 pd. size 8

Taken November 7, 2009 Size 8 Levi's

Taken December 13, 2008 at 194 pds. size 16

Taken November 2008 at 194 pds size 16

It is so hard to believe that was me a year ago. I always knew it was not the real me and I was so far gone that I felt helpless until the band. It gave me control and hope that I can change. I don't feel worthless and like a failure anymore. That is the worst and heaviest feeling in the world to wake up to day in and day out. Finally, I am lighter emotionally and physically. I know weight shouldn't hold you back from enjoying life but it does me. I think because I am so self conscience and think everyone is thinking how fat I am. I believe it comes from when I was young and people would make comments about my weight. I wasn't that big either but I always wanted to be the cute skinny girl. I felt I wasn't ever good enough and had to change. I've changed but for all the good. I think it's about changing my thinking. Changing the tape in my head and negative talk that I tell myself. Anyways, blah blah blah.... Onward......

These are for you Amy! Thanks everyone for leaving comments and writing great blogs about living with the band! Love reading about everyones experiences:)

Off to the dentist, then to my favorite consignment shop in Newport Beach! I am hoping to find some great clothes for cheap. This place always has the best designer clothes and there's nothing wrong with them. So why not? Beats paying full price for things I plan on not wearing next fall/winter.

Next month is my 1 year bandiversary and I will take some full length shots to compare. Bye ya'll!