Insanity!

Embarked on a new workout routine and program. Started Shaun T's 60 day Insanity workout program. Last week my husband and I completed the fit test (day 1) but with the clocks moving ahead an hour and how freakin tired we were in the evening decided to start yesterday. It was soo hard only 40 minutes including warm up and cool down. But we pushed through the workout. I love it because it's on DVD and we dont have to be in the garage working out with weights are on the treadmill.
Life really never stays the same. It seems once I get in the groove of a workout routine it has to change. Like anything in life. But with me working out on my own at home has never been my thing. So my bootcamp trainer who we hired to come to my work in the afternoons after school took a month off. Well, a couple of us tried the dvds to keep us going. Didn't work...no real accountablilty. First 2 times was fine then one or two of us couldn't make it and the motivation wasn't there anymore for me. I am soo envious of my friend J who will workout no matter what. Either at home in the morning or evening as long as she gets it done. Me? no way...I will use my time doing what ever other than w/o. But she is in awesome shape.
Didn't know if I mentioned this but I am on a 3 week vacation. Have a list a mile long of what Iwant to do while I am off. Hmmm..thought one of them was to sleep but here I sit at 5 in the a.m. Going to the gym this morning and yes, do the day 2 of insanity this evening with my husband. I just want to try working out twice. Basically, I miss the bootcamp class at the gym and the friends I have made there. When I work obviously I don't see that group during the week and not much lately on the weekend.
As far as eating, I suck. I sooo need to eat better. Make better choices, blah, blah, blah! I feel like crap. I will eat well for a day or so then really eat what ever I want. I don't feel my band as much when I eat crap food. But when I eat healthy I need to follow the rules about not eating fast and chewing well. I forget I have the band most of the time when I am alone. When eat in with friends I will eat very minimal for fear of getting stuck. Friends will even comment that I didn't eat much. Most of the time I am really hungry when I get home then will eat my left overs. So thats where I don't make good choices. For example at BJs Pizza I ordered a chardonney shrimp pasta and only ate a few bites then late that night ate almost all of it. Not very good on my stomach when I went to bed. But it tasted sooo good. Well, I had better go get ready before my kiddos wake up. Off to start my day. Thanks for reading and have a beautiful day!

My Surprise!

Let me preface this by saying I typed this a couple weeks ago but the pics wouldn't upload and I haven't been back since. I will post again later but wanted to put this up first.

So it's been a while since I posted and I have just been busy... Sooooo Tim had planned such a wonderful surprise for me two weeks ago. I felt sooo good getting ready and just full of anticipation. So it was Saturday morning two weeks ago and we woke up to hear the new of the earthquake in Chile. Living in So. California there was a tsunami warning mentioned as well as for Hawaii. We know now that the tides were high but nothing came of it. Then on top of the warning our weather was stormy and just pouring rain. So Tim was saying how the rain could cancel our plans. I was like okay we will make the best of it. He said go ahead and wear the dressy clothes in case it wasn't cancelled. Dressed and ready to go we headed off in the car. Tim gets a phone call and was very vague with whom ever he was talking to. He said it was off but we can make the best of it. As soon as he started heading south on the freeway I guessed we were driving to San Diego. He said that last year when we were there I commented on the beautiful Hyatt Hotel ( I have such a bad memory of things I say, so if I said it then I'm sure I would love it now) So we get to the hotel all dressed up at noon and nowhere to go. Our room wasn't ready so we headed the bar and had a glass of wine and watched Hawaii on CNN. Then Tim gets a text and picks up my hand and says ready to go? OMG, I knew it!!! He had such a twinkle in his eye and didn't seem soooo disappointed by the cancellation...well we walked to the front of the hotel as a limo pulls up to the curb. He opened the door and there sat our two great friends that happen to be our neighbors. What a great surprise!!! She was the one that took me shopping for the outfit I was wearing!!!! Geez, it felt great to be surpised by Tim and our friends. I haven't been in a limo since I was 16. So off we went to a casino for some gambling. We had fun playing the tables and then we came back to the hotel. Tim and I went to dinner and met up with our friends at the top of the Hyatt for a cocktail and a delicious dessert. So, really what was cancelled because of the weather was instead of taking the limo to the casino, we were going to take a helicopter to the casino and back. Tim was dissappointed that didn't work out thought I would think the limo was a let down. Nooo way...It was an awesome weekend. BTW, I really couldn't eat because I was so excited and I just had a hard time eating. On Sunday, we drove up the coast watched the huge crashing waves. So here are some pictures of our weekend. To end this post I really and truly happy that I had the lapband and am where I am today. I feel great, confident and I don't hate myself anymore. I am comfortable wearing clothes and not feeling like I am too fat to wear nice clothes. I don't beat myself up anymore. I am finally enjoying life and wanting to experience and embrace life.